This is one of those weeks where my mobility disability has decided to take it up a notch. For those of you who are disabled by mobility issues, you know what I'm talking about.
You are going through your life and you have accepted the limitations that your disability has placed on you. Also, you have become somewhat tolerant to the constant level of pain that you are in. You know what I mean. You figured out how to get through the day. You take your meds, rest, jump on a TENS unit or whatever. You go through the day and laugh at good jokes, smile when appropriate and engage in life.
Then for reasons not known to you, your disability decides to decrease your mobility and increase your pain. You try to figure it out. What did I do different? Maybe it was the hot sauce I ate last night? Maybe it was that new pillow? I did buy new shoes! At the end of the day after racking your brain you cannot come up with any reason why you are feeling worse.
In response to your up tick in pain and decrease in mobility, you increase your medications (of course by advice of your Dr.), run your TENS unit all day, stay in bed, etc. You hope that this is only a one day deal. You hope that tomorrow you will wake up and you will be back at your regular disability level. How many of you have been there? Instead of feeling like a hot burning knife is stabbing you that you will fee just the knife in you. Some of you know what I am talking about. You live your life with a pain level of 6 or 7 out of 10 but when you get like this your pain increases to a 9 or 10. You long for the days gone by.
During this time, your mind runs away from you. Fear sets in with the following question, "What if this level of pain is my new reality"? You start to assure yourself that you have been through this before and this exacerbation will subside, you hope anyway.
Why am I writing this in the blog to you all today? Honestly because I really don't feel like writing anything technical. Also, all people with disabilities an exacerbation now and then. It is something we all have to deal with. I just keep telling myself and I will tell you. Like other things in life, we will get through this.
Thanks for letting me lament. Back at you next week.
"Ours is simply to serve"